OH. MY. FREAKIN. GAAAWWDD!

so i would just like to say that april is now my favorite month ever. Ralphy came home to NYC on the damn party train because ever since hes been home, i haven't! seriously every night we seem to be going out and partying. and tomorrow i'm going to margaret's school for 5 freakin days!

tomorrow- leave for margarets

thursday- MIA concert

Friday-Party time

Saturday - surprises

the 18th...silent rave at union square!

the 25th - Party at the Museum of natural History

The 28th - calvin harris concert

may: KANYE WEST 

THEN A WEEK LATER

TAKING BACK SUNDAY AND MY CHEM.

WHHHAAAATTT THHHHEEEE HEEELLLLLLL!!!!! 

i'mawesome.

Besame Mucho...mm each time you give me a kiss i hear music divine, so besame mucho.

it has been quite a bit since i wrote in this. really life gets in the way and  forget, its not like i have mad people reading this so its cool. my semester has been great, my final project came out fine in the end, it was awsome. i'm seeing margaret on wednesday, i'm staying for 5 days, i'm so excited its gonna be so much fun, also we're seeing MIA in concert there so its gonna be amazing. margaret has been calling me like everyday and it makes me happy, like the way things used to be, she sounds so excited and i'm probably just as excited. its going to be nice to get away from here for a bit, i neeeeed it. ALLLSSSOOOO all seems to be right in the world now, Ralphy has officially moved back here and i've never seen Elvin happier. Reunited and it feeels so good. they have been kidnapping me every night practically. i love them, they're the best. 

so a couple of the kids might know about this. today i went for my second appt. with the doctor. i'm gonna get the operation in june when i finish my 3rd quarter in school. that way i'll have a 2 week recovery period.  i'm scared and excited at the same time. when i was getting my back x-rayed today the dude who was doing it was crazy cute and i guess he was flirting with me too and when he asked me if i was nervous i just told him yeah cause i'm just chilling there basically naked and only thing covering me up was those doctors robes. he laughed and said he didn't realize it could be so easy, that usually he has to buy some drinks first. 

yeahh i'm ballin even when i'm gettin x-rays done

and what.

p.s. KANYE IN ABOUT A MONTH!!!

I keep going right back to the one thing that i need, to walk away from...

i just had a great talk with kristi at the yoga center. it was basically us complaining at each other about how much it sucks that we have to work so much. we got into a little more detail about my situation here and she agreed about how mistreated i am. the fact that we're not allowed to take a break except for the 10 minutes it takes to go out and get lunch. i don't care, i go out a few minutes after each sign in. honestly, i'm being punished for something i didn't do. this might sound silly, but, i hate this place. i hate it. i blame this place for all the bad things that happened to me last year and here i am again, for some reason, my life is back to shit ever since i started working here again. i want to be back at the gym, i loved working there, i looked forward to it every single freakin day. i loved giving tours, i loved playing dj, and i loved the people that came there. i made some great friends there. what i loved the most was....that i was happy. i miss feeling that way. 

kristi told me i need to be strong. that i need to stand up to vee and tell him how i feel and that i'm hurting. i honestly am getting sick, physically and i guess a little mentally too. the conditions i work under...theres just something not right about them. no heat, no windows, no break, no vacation time, on sick days they still make you come in. so no sick days, the list goes on. 

**cig break back in 10**

F-F-F-F-FIERCE

so, i just may have the best couple of months coming up. not only did i just have the best job interview in the world yesterday, i'm also going to go see M.I.A in april (hopefully) as weeeellllll as Taking Back Sunday and My Chemical Romance AAAANNNNNDDDDD Kanye West all with in 5 days of each other in MAY. yay! I WIN! YOU LOOSE!

i like my new bunny suit

your so nice and your so smart, your such a good friend you know it breaks my heart, ill tell you that i love you then ill tear your world apart... just pretend i didnt tear your world apart.

this train don't stop here...anymore

I HAVE SO MUCH WORK I THINK I MIGHT EXPLODE.

Now i ain't sayin she a gold digger...

for real for real....Karla is awsome, she got us nice tickets to see Kanye West's Glow in the dark tour!! this is exciting. now we won't have the best of seats...but whatevaaaaaaa. everything else was sold out. beggers can't be choosers riight? so i'm very excited about that. 

oh man, so i've been so SWAMPED with work, basically my school was like "ok cool, you know how they say god created the world in 7 days? well yeah, we want you to do that in 5." i feel that there aren't enough hours in the day for me to actually get what i need to get done. not to mention i get about 4-5 hours of sleep a night. 

dear college, 

fuck you, i want sleep you crazy bastards.

love, Liz

also great news! my school is no longer accepting new students...meaning my school IS FUCKING SHUTTING DOWN!!! so after i just threw at them over $7,000 they're like "hey thanks for the money, we're gonna close now" the cool thing though...i still get to finish my study. they're gonna do a teach out. but still its like whaaaaaaat! 

so i seriously need a new job. i keep looking and i keep whoring my resume out and i guess its not skanky enough cause no ones biting. seriously though i really should be looking when i register for my new term of classes at school. cause i'll get a better sense of what my schedule will be like. therefore i can figure out my work schedule as well.

so this morning on my way to work i saw a columbia kid in a chicken suit. i'm glad his parents are paying $40,000 a semester so he could walk around morningside heights in a chicken suit. 

the best part was that he was walking around like all normal, like yes, he IS a chicken that goes to columbia. he a journalism major and hes ready to get the dirt on really why DID the chicken cross the road. - *lame joke*

i'm so tired. tonight is Mona's 21st b-day party. and really its in the middle of the village somewhere and i don't know if i'm up for it. but i'm gonna go. i really couldn't say no.

i'm also getting frustrated because i can't get a strong signal for the wireless up here. so i keep getting kicked off the internets. ugggghhhh!!!

its less than a month away from my birthday. i'm not really excited. i'm just kinda showing people i'm excited because i should, since its my day of birth, the day i came to life. honestly...i don't care, i'll be 20 years old. i get to legally do the same things as i did when i turned 18! joy? soooo i get to...play the lotto, drive, go to strip clubs, buy porn, buy cigarettes, vote, join the army....but i can't go in and legally get a drink yet. what the fuck. whatever. 

in my head theres a greyhound station, where i send my thoughts to far off destinations. 

really...now i'm just writing for the sake of being reallllly bored.  its almost 3:30 and i've been here since 8:30 and i'll be here til 7:30. so i'm at the half way mark? i guess. i have the song La Bamba stuck in my head and i don't even know the words....except for LALALALALABAMA!!   which i just texted to karla out of boredom. 

i once knew a girl in the years of my youth, with eyes like the summer of beauty and truth...someday you will be loved. 

i wish the computer would connect to some internet. it won't...it hates me. boooo you whore!

and it doesn't help that i'm listening to Death Cab for Cutie...maaaad emo. i know. what can i say, i kinda like them so whatevs.

i'm hungry. i don't know what to eat. 

i knew i made a horrible call and now the state line felt like the berlin wall and there was no doubt on which side i was one

and at night, the sun in retreat made the skyline look like crooked teeth in the mouth of a man who was devouring us both....you're so cute when you're slurring your speech, but they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.

i wanna listen to some WU Tang real bad and i'm pissed cause i don't have any on my comp.